Asian Jamaican: I feel like a crack addict

Day 6.5 of no solids- this shit hasn't gotten any better.  I had ONE surgery and feel like healing is going so slowly.  I have been nauseous for the past three days & I still can't tell if it's detox, not enough nourishment, I just don't know.  I don't know How you did it DJ Meli Mel, but I admire your strength more than you can imagine.  I'm so sorry you had to go through all that for the past two years.  I almost feel ashamed to complain about mine.  But alas, it is my life right here right now.

Anyway, I feel like a crack addict because I know the one thing that will make me not nauseous is a coke.  If I drink a coke, then I put horrible chemicals back in my body, but I feel better.  No more sweats, nausea, feeling like hammered shit.  So what do I do?  I take like two sips til the nausea subsides.  I'm sorry - I feel like I am letting myself down & you  guys, but at least it's not a 32 ounce it's the first sip I've had in 6 days.  Plus I don't plan on going back to soft drinks at all.  I think it's a combo of malnourishment, healing & detoxing. 

One thing I've learned from all this is whatever your journey is - do what works for you.  I now know that just juicing and just liquids isn't for me.  Maybe if I didn't have to work, have a husband, etc. that would work for me.  When I am able bodied - i.e. not sick, fatigued, blah blah blah I plan on hitting up the Paleo way of eating again.  I LOVE juicing, but it'll be supplemental.  I guess the one good thing of starving for almost a week is I am down 6 lbs.  But I want a healthy & meaningful journey to my yoga body. 

It's right around this weight that I seem to stall out.  I hit a plateau & I know I am not at my ideal weight because it's all fat.  I know too much fat on my body is not good.  There's some kind of mind fuck going on at the 155 mark for me (my goal is to get to a healthy 125-130) lbs).  Hmmmm....Well, I hope everyone is well.  I'll see y'all on Sunday!  xxoo - Asian