I have been doing pretty well with the eating every few hours. (Yea Me!) I am still recovering from having blood clots in my lungs and tend to forget that at times.
I worked my part time job on Saturday and did a little too much. Took me all day Sunday and half of Monday to recover. Monday afternoon I popped in a workout dvd and was winded after the warm up. It made me sad. As I told my doctor a few weeks ago, "I may be a big girl, but I DO lead a very active lifestyle!" Or at least I did. Up until the blood clots I did Night Club Cardio, I rode my bike, I could climb stairs and wash my hair without being winded and just went about the business of being Tex.
I was about to get frustrated when it dawned on me that my body has been put through the ringer and it's still here. It's. Still. Here.
I. Am. Still. Here.
It's been less than eight weeks since I was in the hospital. Am I slower than before? Yes, but who cares. I am still here. Do minor pains and aches pop up at unexpected times and places? Yes, but I am still here. All the hatred I had for my body for not looking or feeling how I feel it should is all just bullshit. My body is a wonderland, even if I am not the subject of epic poems or pop songs.
I think I finally get it.
So this was my Oprah, "A ha" moment. What was yours? When did you finally get it and started getting it together? Share and stuff!
Tex - my aha moment was my second to last session with Annette. You know how I am 'Miss Feels' everything & she helped me with an NLP technique & it changed my life. I was able to get my shit together enough to drop my first 30 (now 20 lbs) lbs. with this.
ReplyDeleteI am so very happy you are still here on Earth with me. For very selfish reasons! I love your face & everything that goes with it. I am glad you were able to have your Aha! moment. It's very liberating. xxoo!