Asian Jamaican - "How in the World are you Goin' to See, Laughing at Fools Like Me?"

I'm starting this post without a title per say because I have so much to say.  I hope everyone has carb loaded because I think this may be a long post.

I want to start this evening with my Goals - Weekly & Long Term.
  -This Week's Goal: My goal this week is to drink 34 oz's of water a day
                      -I don't drink enough of anything, so getting in 34 oz's is going to be a bump up for me
  -Long Term: My goals long term are....

1. Overall Health 
2. Drop Body Fat - Actually MELT it off my body
3. Strengthen my muscles
4. Lean Out

I'm sure my Long Term Goals will evolve & change, but I am just working for the Yoga Body!  Moving on...Friday I went to my periodontist because the stitches in my mouth were acting wonky.  He told me I am healing well & actually took the stitches out of the roof of my mouth which in turn released a lot of pressure in my mouth & my gums are finally stopping to ache.  The swelling went down significantly and I am finally feeling like a normal human being.  However, since my body was multi-tasking with healing, detoxing & being flooded with medicine my taste buds have gone bland.  Everything tastes very weird.  More about that in a later post.

So something else I want to talk about is the mental aspect of losing weight.  I was at one point in time a personal fitness trainer & a good one at that.  I had some really shitty experiences throughout my working experience and got very disillusioned with the industry & just quit.  Having said all that, I never experienced the mental aspect of weight gain/loss until I gained weight.  Since around February of this year, some crazy shit went down in my life which turned out to be one of the best things that happened to me - BUT I don't handle stress/life's surprises very well and I started gaining weight again.  I call it survival, but it's not an excuse.  Anyway, I am grateful for the friends I have because if it weren't for the close friends I do have I think I would be stuck in a perpetual state of <in the words of Tex> cock blocking my blessings.

This past Friday, Tex & I had an amazing coaching call.  Did Y'all Know TEX is a Law of Attraction Coach in training?  And a Really Really GOOD one at that.  I don't think she realizes her talent to its fullest extent because it just comes naturally to her.  I asked her if we could talk a little bit before she started recording my call & Boy HOWDY did the tears flow from eyes.  Poor Tex - I don't think she's ever heard me blubber on like that.  I was having a really hard time with processing disappointment coupled with expectations because I am by nature a sensitive person & sometimes I feel all alone because no one really understands that I feel 10 times more than the average person.  The feelings I go through is in all aspects for me mentally, emotionally & physically.  She helped me center myself and then we started our call.  We did an exercise with scripting where I scripted out how I am to reach my YOGA BODY status :D.  What we came up with is I need a routine.  I remember DJ Meli Mel talked about that & I am getting right on board with her.  Without it, I am ALL over the place.  So we ended our call & I felt so light, calm, LOVED and a sense of direction.  I am so grateful that our call happened.  So grateful...

The BEST PART OF MY CALL WITH TEX is the dream I had that night.  Instant Karma by John Lennon was playing & I kept seeing flashes of people achieving their goals making the world a better place.  Then towards the end of the song I walked into a huge classroom setting & John Lennon was standing there circa 1980 with longish hair & a beard and he smiled at me.  Full eye contact and smiled.  I woke up smiling.  I can't remember the last time that happened.  I think this was twofold because remember when Nike used this song for their commercials?  Just Do It Man...Let's all get off our asses & Just Do It!  (By the way, did y'all know I am a High Maintenance Hippie Princess?)

I hope this wasn't too long.  So the Title of this Post is a lyric ripped from John Lennon's Instant Karma.  Anyway - Peace & Love & Don't forget to Smile!  Asian