The Tex Files: Shit Just Got Real

Today was my official start day. And it was rough. Not so much with the food. I made sure that something was in my pie hole every three hours or so. It was rough because I had to play against type and put myself first. I had to say, "No" and mean it and I had to hold my ground when I wanted to fall apart.

There is a line in the movie Wit that says, "The effort must be total for the reward to be meaningful." Today my effort was total and though I am heartbroken and have heartburn I am banking on waking up tomorrow and creating a meaning life. This I know...is what I deserve.

I will now cry myself to sleep.