Sunday, August 25, 2013

Asian Jamaican: Embarrassment

Today is the first time I've skipped a family function because I am embarrassed that my no no bad fat isn't gone from my body.  My cousin had a baby & the Bris was today.  I didn't want to go & have to hide under clothes & pretend to be okay with being there while I am self conscious.  Now I KNOW I could be way worse off in terms of body shape & how far I have to go, but I just couldn't do it today.  After being nauseated for the past two weeks & not being able to get my groove on with food the way I want to, I just couldn't be social.

I finally started back at yoga - which I really like.  I just like the way it makes me feel.  I sometimes get a wee bit jealous when I see/hear someone talk about how they got their hardcore workout on, but I have to remember that Yoga is where my body is right now.  I'm okay with that.  I'm okay with it because I can feel everything on my body get tight.  It's exciting & something to look forward to!

Again, food has been a bit fail & all over the place.  I can eat & be okay for a little while & then feel sick again.  I had to go through and reread people's journeys on Paleo and how they had flu like symptoms up until 2.5-3 weeks.  I've been through this, but I literally become non-functional when I go into fat burning mode.  The only thing that makes me feel good is the bad stuff, but I am doing that in moderation mixed in with the good.  I Really hope the universe is swinging my way.  I am usually a really good manifester, but I am feeling a little lopsided. 

Talk to ya soon.

AJ

4 comments:

  1. You can do it! Just be patient and kind to your body.

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  2. You are too bright of a light to let something like your appearance keep you at home.

    Hope you are feeling better,
    Tex

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    1. Warm Fuzzies :) Thank you, Tex! Totally brought a smile to my face.

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