Aye Aye Aye...Where do I start?!?!? All my life I'd been a fit, sexy little thang! I was a personal trainer, completed sprint triathlons, 5k's LOVED kick boxing. Then I got married almost 8 years ago & that's when I got my heart broken & never really recovered. Due to the extreme dysfunction from my husband's family & the way they handle things ( I grew up in a very supportive & loving family), my not being strong enough & feeling broken & lost....Well almost 60 pounds later here I am. Long story short, I lost my power. I used to be a very fierce fiery woman, but with an ache in my heart so strong it shattered who I am. I guess the only thing that was left to do since I wasn't allowed to go through my grieving process was to eat. I can't drink & am scared to death of drugs. I was the one getting free drinks & all the attention until I started to hide behind this fat suit. I have another blog that shows somewhat of my journey, but I haven't posted in it for a year?
Let me fast forward-Last year in July or August I was diagnosed with metabolic syndrome i.e. prediabetes. I was completely horrified & embarrassed. That's what fat people got because they ate horribly. Oh wait...that was me! YIKES. So even though my weight rocketed over the past 8 years I thought I was doing ok. Fearing that I would have to be dependent on medication, I turned to changing my diet. I went 100% Paleo & the weight started coming off effortlessly. I reversed my metabolic syndrome. I was finally on my way to FREEDOM!!! I could eat as much as I wanted, not count calories & not really have to exercise. Then the holidays happened..then my husband got fired (he's the bread winner) & everything I knew got shattered again. Frail little thing aren't I? We bounced back, but the damage was already in motion. It wasn't like a train pulling out of the station, it was a Freaking Rocket shot into space. My therapist passed away last year & that has been really hard on me. I loved her like a mother & for the first time in a long time I felt that heartache again. I had no one to turn to. Sigh...Anyway, that's for another post in time. My point is, that I have gained 10 pounds since the firing of my husband & we sold our house & moved.
My goal is just health & releasing every single lb. of fat off my body! I have back aches & hip aches & I am TOO YOUNG to be feeling like shit. So my efforts will be to turn back to a whole foods approach. Yoga at least four times a week & walking at least every day. I am at a stage where I have to be gentle with my body. I bought a juicer because I feel that's where my body needs to be. Drinking greens on a daily basis. We just got back from vacation, so the grocery store will be in a couple of days. I too, like DJ Meli Mel feel privileged to share this journey with Tex & DJ Meli Mel!! Girl Power!!!
Yo! Don't forget we have a Trader Joes in the hood now and a Fresh Market opening soon also. Girl, the grocery store is your friend :-D
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